New Ambition

Procrastination and "devoidance" do not lead to success. However, in the quest for success, failure can just be a stepping stone. I am tired of the poor habit patterns in my life, it is my decision to move on from them and be what I want to be and accomplish what I desire. I think I know what my purpose is ... but I don't feel the inspiration to bring forth that "inner drive", which makes me question if it is really my purpose. Question to self: what is your purpose? Why do you want to do it? Is it as complicated and concrete as you think it is or simply being a contributor of good? I am starting to feel that it is the second.

A person's life is composed of repitious actions. In a single day: wake up, get ready, eat, go to work or school, eat, come home, eat, leisure or more work, personal care routine, sleep, repeat. No wonder Solomon called everything a vanity. That pattern does not paint the whole picture though, merely shows how somethings are done and redone over and over again over a lifetime. Not everyone has the same pattern, but every person on earth has a pattern of repetitive tasks, thoughts, et cetera.

When thinking about the thoughts and lives of an individual and then zooming out and observing how each individual's life plays into the next and how humanity is a whole interconnected ...something, it is somewhat astounding. The world is so small and so big all at the same time. It is a bit much for my mind to comprehend.

...alright I'll quit pondering and get back to math.

My goodness where does this goodness come from?

I've been rebelling from following recipes for quite awhile now. My preference is to rely on inspiration and the bits of knowledge I've picked up. It would be a shame just to throw some food together because of laziness or lack of time, food must be made with intent. Tonight I did just that...actually the past two nights I've done that. First I will explain what I did with the meal pictured and then I shall share with you how to turn tomato soup and grilled cheese sandwiches gourmet. 

1.1 Get the steak marinating.

1.2 Potatoes:

Boil finely diced kale and cubed potatoes in water with salt and a little cayenne. Drain water once a knife inserts into a potato chuck easily (avoid getting too soft). Pour some olive oil in a skillet over med high head, brown the potatoes/kale, add salt/pepper, parsley, all purpose seasoning, when just about done add some butter for a nice brown color and additional flavor.

3. Wax beans: 

canned garden wax beans, butter, salt/pepper

4. "Baked" beans:

1 can black beans

1 can red beans

ketchup

yellow mustard

grade B maple syrup

Worcestershire sauce

olive oil

lemon juice

salt/pepper

tabasco sauce

Rinse and drain beans, combine in pan, add ingredients to make sauce (use less as the list goes down, the ketchup is the greatest and the tabasco is the least).

5. Steak:

leftover steak that had been lightly cooked. Marinade in red wine vinegar, olive oil, fresh parsley, salt/pepper while working on other parts of the meal. When potatoes are done set them aside and use skillet to heat steak. Put some olive oil in the skillet with the burner on high, when the oil is hot (be careful) poured steak and marinade in skillet, sprinkle with just enough flour, turn heat down to med low, stir, let thicken and heat up.

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Tomato soup:

2 cans Campbell's tomato soup

1 can Rotell diced tomatoes and chili peppers (has a definite kick)

1 can chicken broth (instead of milk)

4 cloves garlic

1 med minced onion

T olive oil

2 t dried cilantro

{I think that is all, I cannot completely remember)

For the sandwiches, use smoked gouda, smoked cheddar, or havarti cheese.

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Try wearing lace, it is very feminizing; just do not over do it.

As for MUSIC: 

The Black Keys "Set You Free" is one of my favorite songs and the bands new music video "Tighten Up" is pretty funny. I like their sense of humor. Speaking of favorite songs, "We're Going To Be Friends" by The White Stripes will never get old.

I posted the video because I do not know how to imbed them, "Boyfriend" by Best Coast has been stuck in my head. 

Best Coast - Boyfriend

Hearty Autumn Soup

 

 I'll add a list of ingredients to trigger my memory in the future before I completely forget them...

button mushrooms

carrots

knoodles

peas

butter beans

crappy white wine

chicken broth

canned cream of chicken soup

tarragon?

mmmushrooms...making up recipes is fun!

~Mushroom Steak Sandwich~

Sandwich:

Leftover teriyaki steak thinly sliced

Small red onion thinly sliced

Baby portabella mushrooms thickly sliced

Kale finely chopped 

2 tablespoon extra virgin olive oil

1 tablespoon butter

splash of lemon juice

salt and vegetable pepper

Saute above ingrediants together

Broil onion bagel with melted havarti cheese

Sauce:

mayonnaise 

dejan mustard 

horse radish

cilantro finely diced

majoram dried 

Side: 

baked sweet potato fries 

Famous Dave's Sweet and Zesty BBQ sauce

Beverage:

Fruit and Berry smoothy (peaches, mango, strawberries, raspberries, blackberries, blueberries, and blue agave)

Actually took 20 minutes to make myself a proper lunch, instead of just resorting to a depressing pb&j,  and then proceeded to eat it outside while admiring the captivating fall leaf colors while resisting the drooling dog Scarbur's attempt to sample my food.  

 

Lucy Rose - Night Bus

Ah! English Accent English Music

When searching for Becoming a Jackal by Villagers, I discovered the youtube channel "watchlistentell" and the featured [musical] artists for the most part are fantastic. Lucy Rose is particularly delightful.

When driving down the road and someone coming from the opposite direction waves energetically at you it is partly confusing since they are strangers and partly nice to be greeted so warmly.

diyfashionNote: If you shrink a wool pullover sweater, just cut the front open in some way and add some personal unique touches then wear as a threequarterlength sweater.